The Am in me :)
I am always lost, confused, too damn blond for my own good. I am in love beyond a point of sanity and I have these three little things that call me mama, but I still don’t know where they came from. I woke up one day and here they were, so here they stay. I am complex and impossible to understand but hopelessly hopeful you will try to decipher.
August 2, 2007 at 4:10 pm
Those tree things are 3 gifts from God for you. You are lucky to have them. There are too many people want the same things you have and they cant have. Give Thanks to God
August 3, 2007 at 10:45 am
Dear Shahrzad,
No, I understand this blessing completely. The first son came as a present to my husband after he was drugged and raped by a woman he did not know. I accepted this first blessing as my son because I knew how special he was and couldn’t even imagine him not being in my life. The other two sons were hard earned. We had three miscarriages trying to conceive. Each time it hurt too much to breathe. The doctors said that something was wrong with the cells. Something wrong with the matching of our cells and it was aborting the babies. The doctors said we could try invetro with tested embryos but I refused believing God would decide for us. I started doing yoga, eating right, I stopped drinking sodas and tea, and did everything I could to be healthy. That’s when we got pregnant. Now I have three beautiful little boys that are a blessing. However, in the scheme of things they came incredibly fast as though one day they just appeared here.
Do not believe my words to be calloused or uncaring. Of course my children are a blessings, even more so I think than if I had “earned” them easily. Thank you for commenting though.
~Am