Abortion
There was this sinking feeling today.
This dreaded thump of each heartbeat.
A slow and steady rush that was once welcomed but now seems tainted.
Where has your perfection gone?
The hopes and dreams dashed upon the ultrasound screen.
There is this scream inside my head that ignores my soul.
How can my heart love you so much but my mind falter at the words?
And always this echo
“If we had known sooner you could have had an abortion”
Each flutter is a reminder of my guilt
A reminder of my fear
And constantly I think I must be the brain damaged one.
February 25, 2009 at 3:45 pm
Wow. Simply wow. This is so very powerful. Wonderfully done.
February 28, 2009 at 4:30 pm
Talk to me…Email me. I love you. A.
March 1, 2009 at 8:45 pm
You know I’m here. Always.
July 8, 2009 at 6:37 pm
yeah, very very powerful. hope you’re doing ok.
July 22, 2009 at 1:31 pm
I had my first child early, at 17. It is a scary time. I was also a sidewalk counselor at an abortion clinic. If you need advice or some to speak with e mail me I would love to help
July 24, 2009 at 9:59 am
I want you all to know that baby Ry is well. They say that the ultrasounds were faulty and at this point at least there is no indication of brain damage or the microcephallic condition they had once promised would ruin his life. He is amazing and I feel even more guilty and sick with myself for my thoughts on abortion. While it was never a viable option in my circumstance, abortion at least in my mind, was the only way of preventing my son from leading a miserable life. I am ever so thankful for faulty ultrasounds and late term abortion legislation. Thank you all for your thoughts.
Love Am