Brian

How foolish of me to believe in you.  As though this world has some plan for us besides utter chaos.  I had thought that our past, our sex, our similarities was enough.  That it was possible for us to be kindred without being lovers.  However, that’s not the divine plan is it?  We can not be friends.  Amazing that you can be myspace “friends” with a hundred people you have never even met, but me, no.  I do understand though.  Do not let my disappointment mask the fact that I am acutely aware that you disappeared as soon as she walked in.  Is it not possible for you to love her while speaking to me?  Do you understand that I will never be yours?  Even after two failed marriages and twenty years to mature.  Brian I do love you.  You understand all the parts of me that no one else even tries to.  I will miss you, but now I know that your future lies with her and not with me.