One last thought

I love you A.  May sleep help you get through another day.

~Amanda

Shut the door when you go

You walk away
Through stormy nights
Seeking refuge with those like you
But you fail to understand my plight
Showing me your angry attitude
I have no one to take away the pain
No one cares about my soul
The torment falls in unrelenting rain
Lines show from the years of strain
You have those that care for you
That help to dry away your tears
I have those that hate me
That have failed to care throughout the years

Run away to those that adore you
Those that consider you a king
Here I will faithfully remain
To wash away your bloody stains

Drunk Love

Your soul is so intoxicating
I stumble around dazed and confused
Thankful for every moment
I have been blessed to share with you.

Suffocation

I have forgotten how to breathe
To inhale the sweet smells of spring
To ride on eagles wings
To take simple pleasure in everything
I lack the time to find a smile
Or enjoy the comfort of your arms
I roam around in listless wonder
Straying into many treacherous storms

But yet my sacriafices that leave me this way
Never seem enough for you
The screaming simply continues on
To envelope all my meaning and truth
What are all these sacrifices for
If not to make you a stronger you

And so slowly I suffocate
Gaging on your intoxicating scent
Wishing you could see my pain
And give me a break just for one day

Never enough time

I’ve lost the time
To speak my mind
Caught up in elegant phrases
Impatient frustration
Emotional devastation
Void of caring implications
Lost inside a spinning world
Thought and hope an endless blur
Forgotten upon the pages of time
Reaching for a moment of rest
Fighting forever to pass the test
Grasping for seconds
Struggling to breathe one day at time
Drowning instead in this sea of rhyme.

Hearts

Our heated passion measured in breaths
Sighs and increasing heartbeats
Silent fixtures of a loving heart
Beating in faithful determiniation
Endlessly intertwined in one steady thump
Engaged in each other like never before
As the anniversary of the single combination draws near
Another heartbeat joins the the rest
And together the body grows stronger
Relishing in love without interference

Thunder and Lightning

The angry heavens opened wide
Their screams like demons left to roam
And lightning streaked across the sky
Finding earth its final home
You stood quaking in the shadow of God
Shivering in the rain
Fearful of the power you saw
Praying it would wane
And I stood there a shoulder for you
To lift you from the flood
But it seemed my help was overdue
Your shoes were stuck in the mud
And this time I could not free you
From the raging of the storm
I failed to protect you
Now the water around us swarms

Taking Blood

For thirty minutes I hurt you
Pushed you into unbelievable pain
And my tears were not enough
Your blood stains still remain

Sometimes it seems that the cruelest fate is to become a mother.
Sorry Arden

Kickboxing

I punched as though my life depended on it
Sought out my invisible foe
And my padded fist made contact
With the hatred in my soul
For just an hour this afternoon
I let the world flow by
And I punched at my frustration
Releasing all the hatred kept inside