Leaving

Am I really so transparent
My tear does not run down
It doesn’t hit your heart
And falls without a sound
Am I really so pathetic
My heartbeat doesn’t send
A tremor down your spine
The way that once it did
How can you fail to understand
The fears that bind my feet
And fail to comprehend
Why I admit defeat
My world is not a play
With a happy ending within
Instead it is a nightmare
Full of pain, lies, and chagrin
Will tomorrow bring emotion
Hope from your uncaring soul
Or will it be void of devotion
Love and self-control
I wish you to understand
To view the hell that I see
To live my daily life
Make you be all that is me
I know that you fail to understand
The life it is I lead
But maybe through my eyes
You will witness why I flee